Ruined

Feel lyk shout out loud currently
cn eveyone around me nw juz all disappear or vanish for few moment
Calm dwn is e thing i wan to do nw
watever it is
allow me to be rude in tis post
if cnt stand wif it u may juz leave nw
Since am in here, i had controlled my temper over mostly everytin
nt to mad over tis nt to mad over tt
y?? is nt juz becoz of impression
i clearly understand theyr nt e noe whom noe me well
all of them r unfamiliar wif..i cnt show them wif tt face they had nth wrong
+ e environment there truely said tt is peace n fresh air
it reali calm my emotion
Bt I still myself
no one able to change me, my character wic had installed
in me for so long
n am nt e one who ll show out my deepest feeling n emotion to e others who am nt familiar wif
i juz cnt
i unlike e feel of showing out let e others thru me vividly
and tink is a nd..i wan to k3p some priority for myself at least i still able to defence 4 myself fr being hurt

I had grown up under ur control for so long
y u juz cnt understand single of it
y u k3p misunderstanding me
Y juz nt letting me free
y juz nt letting me out of ur control
YY? jz nt letting me being myself

our thought are different
y am i nd to waste my energy to concern toward a ppl whom i juz noe
letting her to noe all abt me
i had tried to fix up my uncomforty
Y u din noe tt i unlike it!!
Y am i nd be friendly even thought am fucking exhausted n worn out
bt still nd to report over very single thing toward Wat i Hav done
AM so sick of this
y AM I DOING TIS FOR
BY needing her help over: FREE BOOKS, ABLE TO STAY IN HOSTEL!
Is all shit! could i juz let it off
Y juz dun believe me
nt even single sen of trust t i could handle y own life
IT SUCK!!
DID u noe tt it mk me feel so useless
i juz dun wan to be a baby anymore
a babysitter for me!! wat e hack
Nice to say is tking care
bad to say is spy me!!
iDIOT! Y NT JUZ GV Me MINS of silent plz
i nd an acompany frm loneniess nt to b a reporter!
U juz cnt understand me! am head over lotz of things
To whom may concern: stop frm teaching e wat to do! mking me to complete tis or tt
Am a human nt a robot
AAAHHHHHHHHHH!!
AM FAKE! Go to hell